About Last Night

I

We get drunk to say the things our brains think

But our mouths do not let speak

Secret longings and desires pour from our lips like marbles 

Splashing waves into poison filled cups 

Filling our hollows with an artificial intimacy

Suffocating our loneliness through entangled bodies

And in the stained sheets of a stranger 

I kissed the taste of beer from your tongue 

II

I wonder if you think of my bare skin pressing against yours 

Or my lips tracing the outline of your jaw

I wonder if you feel that thin strand of wire tethering us together 

And think about tugging it closer

III

I hate to think that the thought of your fingers
Tracing the curve of my exposed spine 

Doesn’t keep you awake at night 

Because it’s two in the morning 

And my window is the only one that still has the lights on.

IV

I know I said this will only last the night 

But then tell me why it is already tomorrow morning 

And I am trying to find you in the lingering scent on my pillow

V

I think it was just because you were a nearby warm mass of breathing flesh 

I could have torn through your muscles
And embed inside my frail bones instead of yours 

Gouged out the organs from your body and replaced them with someone else's 

Wielding my unveiled layers of bruised skin as a weapon 

I never meant for your hands to be stained with my own deliberate blood shed 

I tell myself we were nothing but two intoxicated carcases 

Marionettes entangled on my now immoral sheets 

But as my lungs stung with each inhale of smoke 

I watched a room full of strings tug on the limp dancing limbs of strangers 

While the knots untied around your wrists and slowly fell to the floor